Grumpys 6 Month Memorial

Grumpy passed away January 21st, 2010. We had a 6 month memorial service in Connecticut where he was from and wished to be buried. It was hard to have to go through another service all over again. Even though 6 months is not a long time to heal from a death, it did get a little easier over time, and then this past weekend brought back so many memories and re opened all my sadness from when he died. I can't believe so much time has passed. I still find myself thinking of him all the time, and that one day I am going to go home to visit and he is going to be there. I am very grateful for last trip he was able to make to California back in November, even though it wasn't his best trip. I hadn't realized he was so sick until that visit. Then through Thanksgiving and Christmas he was going down hill very fast. It didn't really give me much time to think what the outcome could be. I had hoped so much that he was going to get better, I didn't think that death was going to be an option. Everything happened so quickly. Christmas day I remember my mom saying that this could be Grumpy's last Christmas, but I didn't think it was true. It wasn't until it was announced that his cancer was terminal and he would be sent home for hospice care that it really sunk in. Then I realized how bad it was and he could leave us at any time, and it was going to happen, we just didn't know when. He has left me with so many wonderful memories. He was such a big part of my life. I will never forget his humor. He loved making people laugh. I would give anything to have him back. He left us way too soon. I love you and miss you very much.